Friday Pics

It's Friday and I thought it would be a great day to share some pics of my SWEET Briley and a couple of her Daddy! Enjoy!!!

Grr!

First time to wear overalls, these are hand me down overalls so they are still to big but come Fall she should be able to wear them, and hopefully she'll wear a shirt.

Pure Sweetness

She was carrying Lily and Sadies doll around in her skirt like it was a sling. She'll be a good Momma someday.

My Mr. Hotness
Show me those teeth again tiger....
Love those baby blues

"The moon is awake Mommy"

Beauty and her Daddy
Yummy icing
More yumm-o
Sticky faceCutie Patootie

It's been 6 weeks.

What have a learned in 6 weeks?

I’ve learned that the pain doesn’t just go away. I think about my baby everyday and wonder what Baby J is doing at this moment. Is Jesus holding my little one for me, is He reassuring Baby J that mommy, daddy and sissy will be there soon to take over? I am constantly questioning what happened, was it because I cleaned the bathtub, was all the coke I drank, was it because I missed a couple days of my prenatal vitamins? What was it? My Dr. said that it was probably just a chromosome defect, but that still doesn’t bring me peace. I do know that God will not give me more than I can handle and I feel like I have done pretty well, but would this baby have been too much for me to handle? I guess I will find out in Heaven, even though Baby J will be perfect…it will be the greatest meeting that I will ever have. I can’t wait.

I’ve learned that losing a baby is expensive, I keep getting bills for the surgery and it makes me mad. I know that I have to pay the Dr.’s but why is it so expensive, I didn’t even get to take anything home. I get angry about the bills being so expensive, but then God quickly shows me that I am very blessed to be able to even pay these bills.

I’ve learned that trying to get pregnant again scares me. I want to have more kids, I really do but my head won’t let go of the what ifs. My heart is longing for it, but right now my mind is the powerful one. What if I do get pregnant again, do we tell people or do we wait till it’s here to let the word out? I telling you that if my mouth didn’t tell you my belly would, the minute I get pregnant my belly expands like no other.

I’ve learned that I am NO closer to God than I was the day before I lost the baby. Why? I have no idea. That is one of the biggest things that upset me. I would have thought such a tragedy as this was to me it would have brought me to my knees every night. I am ashamed to admit that I have not been on my knees every night. Please pray for me.

I’ve learned that other people forget fast, but I will NEVER forget.

I’ve learned to play with my precious B, when there is laundry to be done.

I’ve learned that my husband doesn’t understand what my hormones are doing to me, but he tries really hard. God love him J

I’ve learned that there are so many people out there that have gone through what I did, and they too need love and support.

I’ve learned that I need guidance in what God is doing in my life and what He wants me to be doing with my life. Am I suppose to be the baby making machine I want to be, or am I suppose to be my B’s biggest fan. I am already B’s biggest fan, but is there room to root for more?

Thanks for reading.

RE:Fit For Her

I went to Fit For Her last night at 6:00. When I got there I asked the VERY young girl working there if she could give me a tour and tell me about the place. I think I caught her off guard or she's extremely new because she was nervous about doing it. She did it anyway! The place is super cute and compact. I expected it to be really packed because of the time that I went, not so...there were 2 on the cardio equipment, 1 on weights, 3 in the aerobics class, and 2 tanning. I kept asking the girl if this was a busy time for them and she said normally yes but today it was slow, I blame the weather. The place is very clean, and everyone seemed nice. I took B to the kids room, she loved it and she didn't want to leave I had to bribe her to get her to leave. In the kids room they have a TV with cable and on the cardio machines if you tune your TV to a certain channel you can watch your children in the room. They also have tons of books which B loved, bean bag chairs, and a few toys. All in all I think this place is going to work for me and it better because I have paid for it for 3 months!

I start my first workout there tonight....wish me luck! I can't wait to be tan in the dead of winter :)

Fit for Her

I am going tonight to take a tour of a newer fitness facility in Edmond called Fit for Her. I like the concept of this place, just for women, they have a child care section (no supervision, so we will see how that works), tanning (they provide the lotion), aerobics classes, cardio equipment, weights, sauna, massage chair room, and the best part is that it is open 24/7. Check out their website to find out more www.fitforherok.com. I will let you know what I find out and what I think about it. When I talked to them last week they said that if you were a myspace friend of theirs they would give you a discount. Not to hard huh!

My Favorite Movies

I love movies, but Casey and I don't watch them. We get so busy with other things that we can't just sit down and watch a movie and if we do I usually fall asleep. Well here is a list of movies that I would NEVER fall asleep in.

1. Anchorman- The character Rick The Weather Guy is my favorite...."I love lamp"!

2. Napoleon Dynamite- This movie is just down right funny.

3. My Best Friends Wedding- I love Julia Roberts and this one is my favorite of hers.

4. The Count of Monte Cristo- Gotta love Jim Cavezal's Blue eyes.

5. 50 First Dates-I love this movie and the music.

6. Dodgeball- So stupid it's funny!

7. Something About Mary- Another stupid but funny movie.

8. Rudy- This movie gives me goosebumps every time.

9. Father of the Bride- I want that house!

10. The Notebook- I watched this movie when I was pregnant with B....bad idea! This movie is so sweet and I cry a lot throughout the whole thing.

Ok, people your turn! I need some good movie suggestions so that MAYBE we will watch movies more often!

When I grow up

When I was in Elementary School my teachers asked the question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Back then I wanted to be an Astronaut, one boy wanted to be President…we all laughed because there was no way he would ever be President (we were mean kids).

Then came Middle School and I wanted to be a Teacher, I quickly gave up that thought when one of my friends told me that Teachers had to know everything. Well, I didn’t know everything so that wasn’t going to work. Funny how our young minds think!

In High School I went back to the idea of being a Teacher. Not just a regular Teacher but an Art Teacher. I had an amazing Art Teacher in school he encouraged me to do what I wanted to do not what others did or thought I should do…so I did! Some of my best work was in his class. I wanted to go back to Deer Creek to take his place when he retired which was going to be at the same time I would have graduated from UCO.

When College came around I enrolled in my art class and loved it, hated the prof. but loved drawing and expressing myself. The very next semester came and I couldn’t get into the class that I needed to, so I changed majors. I was very fickle! I then thought I would make a great Marriage Counselor, we will never know, I never even enrolled in the major at all. Finally two of my Delta Zeta friends talked me into trying Kinesiology. Within Kinesiology there were several different specialty majors that you could choose from, Susan chose Exercise Science and Karen chose Recreation Management. My very first class was Anatomy, which is where I met my Hubs. I fell in love with this major and the people in it. I chose Exercise Science, I wanted to be a Respiratory Therapist then came Chemistry class…so I graduated with a degree in Recreation Management, funny how things work out huh.

Right now my dream is to once again stay home with my B and our future kids. I love the job that I have right now, and it just isn’t in God’s plan for me to stay home. I do pray often that he would allow me to live out my dream, I will scream at the top of my lungs when that happens! Believe me you will hear me :)

Who wouldn't want to stay home with a face like that!

What did you want to be when you grew up? Or are some of you still growing up like me?

It's Official.....

My dear sweet husband has ADHD!!!!!

For those of you who know my husband are shaking your head saying...yep I can see that. Well I personally have thought this for a looooooong time, I am just glad that he finally gave up on joking about it. It finally hit him about a week ago, and he has been very aggressive in learning what it is, just to make sure he has it. He had self diagnosed himself with it, but now it's a reality.

He went and saw his Dr. today and walked away with meds.

Please be praying for us, this is really hard for me to deal with because he's my husband and I don't like seeing something wrong with him....he's perfect to me. I want him to get better but I don't want to lose my fun-loving man. I am sure that with the meds we will see a huge difference and I am just praying that it helps him with his work and with our marriage. It's hard being a working mom to a 2 yr old and a 30 yr old and making all the decisions for our family, it's just more than I wanted on my plate, but I am a pretty good juggler now :) You should watch me some time it's amazing stuff!

A friend of mine has been reading Power of a Praying Wife, and she has encouraged me through her blog to go out and buy it. I want nothing more than to have my man know that I am here for him no matter what. I need to be VERY specific in my prayers and I really hope this book helps.

Ramble, Ramble, Ramble....Thanks for the prayers!

FAVE T.V. SHOWS

Here is the list of my favorite T.V. shows. These are the shows that I can watch over and over no matter how many times I have seen each episode.

1. Friends- I absolutely love this show, it makes me laugh every time I watch it.

2. Saved by the Bell- I was so in love with Slater, I think it was the dimples :)

3. Everybody Loves Raymond- This is so my family! Casey is Raymond, my Brother in law the Cop is Robert, and I am not saying that Rays parents are my parents but if I lived across the street from them, they might just be....

4. The Cosby Show- How can you not like The Cosby Show...

5. According to Jim- This is another show that Jim reminds me of Casey at times. I love their house and Andy the Uncle is stinkin hilarious!

6. AFV- Now this is probably my number one show. I can't help but laugh at all the videos of people falling. This is a sure fire way to get me laughing so hard I either cry, pee my pants or do the grandpa laugh. What's even better is that my sweet little B takes after me in this area, she loves this show too, and the falling people are her fave too. I don't have a link to this one b/c there are just too many to choose from, and I couldn't find my all time favorite one.

7. Desperate Housewives-I got sucked in, and now I can't stop....I am ready for the new season to start.

8. How I Met Your Mother- I love Barney in this show, he's so funny. I also love Marshall and Lily!

9. Big Band Theory- These guys are so funny. They are so awkward that you just want to rescue them.

10. Rachael Ray- I love her show, and she has so much energy. I wish I still stayed home so I could watch it everyday!

11. The Office- I don't have enough room here to explain how much I love this show. This is Casey's number 1 show and he is so ready for it to start again. "That's what she said."

That's all folks! Your turn...